Anxiety

I'm beginning to feel some anxiety about Ron's (hopeful) liver transplant. His next appointment, which is his pre-screening appointment, is July 6th.

We've been reading alot of information about the surgery itself. The planning - getting all his paperwork together - redoing his will - medical directive - insurance papers, his military discharge paperwork.

It all feels like he might go away. Right now, I can't think about that - I may never want to think about that. But something in my mind keeps reminding me that at some point in time one of us will have to go on without the other.

Everyone should sit and think about that - one of you in your relationship will leave you - not because they want to but because it happens. Does panic set in?

I want to believe his liver transplant will go on with little to no complications because he is a strong man who loves his family very much.

He told me yesterday - to make sure he sees Me, Libby and Oliver just before the surgery.

We live our life on the tiniest little thread - one tiny slip - or tear and life changes for all - like a ripple in the water.

I love you Ron.